Many people are still in touch with Shimon, and will have read this on his blog.  I want to repost it here, in the interests of trying to understand all sides of a deeply divided society,  which we in the west understand very little.

For those who would like to see a Palestinian response, please follow the link in ‘Bushka’s’ comment.

I Am the Soldier Who Slept In Your Home
By: Yishai G (reserve soldier)


While the world watches the ruins in Gaza,

you return to your home which remains standing. However, I am sure that it is clear to you that someone was in your home while you were away. I am that someone.

I spent long hours imagining how you would react when you walked into your home. How you would feel when you understood that IDF soldiers had slept on your mattresses and used your blankets to keep warm.

I knew that it would make you angry and sad and that you would feel this violation of the most intimate areas of your life by those defined as your enemies, with stinging humiliation. I am convinced that you hate me with unbridled hatred, and you do not have even the tiniest desire to hear what I have to say. At the same time, it is important for me to say the following in the hope that there is even the minutest chance that you will hear me.

I spent many days in your home. You and your family’s presence was felt in every corner. I saw your family portraits on the wall, and I thought of my family. I saw your wife’s perfume bottles on the bureau, and I thought of my wife. I saw your children’s toys and their English language schoolbooks. I saw your personal computer and how you set up the modem and wireless phone next to the screen, just as I do.

I wanted you to know that despite the immense disorder you found in your house that was created during a search for explosives and tunnels (which were indeed found in other homes), we did our best to treat your possessions with respect. When I moved the computer table, I disconnected the cables and lay them down neatly on the floor, as I would do with my own computer. I even covered the computer from dust with a piece of cloth. I tried to put back the clothes that fell when we moved the closet although not the same as you would have done, but at least in such a way that nothing would get lost.

I know that the devastation, the bullet holes in your walls and the destruction of those homes near you place my descriptions in a ridiculous light. Still, I need you to understand me, us, and hope that you will channel your anger and criticism to the right places.

I decided to write you this letter specifically because I stayed in your home.

I can surmise that you are intelligent and educated and there are those in your household that are university students. Your children learn English, and you are connected to the Internet. You are not ignorant; you know what is going on around you.

Therefore, I am sure you know that Quassam rockets were launched from your neighborhood into Israeli towns and cities.

How could you see these weekly launches and not think that one day we would say “enough”?! Did you ever consider that it is perhaps wrong to launch rockets at innocent civilians trying to lead a normal life, much like you? How long did you think we would sit back without reacting?

I can hear you saying “it’s not me, it’s Hamas”. My intuition tells me you are not their most avid supporter. If you look closely at the sad reality in which your people live, and you do not try to deceive yourself or make excuses about “occupation”, you must cer
tainly reach the conclusion that the Hamas is your real enemy.

The reality is so simple, even a seven year old can understand: Israel withdrew from the Gaza strip, removing military bases and its citizens from Gush Katif. Nonetheless, we continued to provide you with electricity, water, and goods (and this I know very well as during my reserve duty I guarded the border crossings more than once, and witnessed hundreds of trucks full of goods entering a blockade-free Gaza every day).

Despite all this, for reasons that cannot be understood and with a lack of any rational logic, Hamas launched missiles on Israeli towns. For three years we clenched our teeth and restrained ourselves. In the end, we could not take it anymore and entered the Gaza strip, into your neighborhood, in order to remove those who want to kill us. A reality that is painful but very easy to explain.

As soon as you agree with me that Hamas is your enemy and because of them, your people are miserable, you will also understand that the change must come from within. I am acutely aware of the fact that what I say is easier to write than to do, but I do not see any other way. You, who are connected to the world and concerned about your children’s education, must lead, together with your friends, a civil uprising against Hamas.

I swear to you, that if the citizens of Gaza were busy paving roads, building schools, opening factories and cultural institutions instead of dwelling in self pity, arms smuggling and nurturing a hatred to your Israeli neighbors, your homes would not be in ruins right now. If your leaders were not corrupt and motivated by hatred, your home would not have been harmed. If someone would have stood up and shouted that there is no point in launching missiles on innocent civilians, I would not have to stand in your kitchen as a soldier. You don’t have money, you tell me? You have more than you can imagine.

Even before Hamas took control of Gaza, during the time of Yasser Arafat, millions if not billions of dollars donated by the world community to the Palestinians was used for purchasing arms or taken directly to your leaders bank accounts. Gulf States, the emirates – your brothers, your flesh and blood, are some of the richest nations in the world. If there was even a small feeling of solidarity between Arab nations, if these nations had but the smallest interest in reconstructing the Palestinian people – your situation would be very different.

You must be familiar with Singapore. The land mass there is not much larger than the Gaza strip, it is considered the second most populated country in the world. Yet, Singapore is a successful, prospering, and well managed country. Why not the same for you?

My friend, I would like to call you by name, but I will not do so publicly. I want you to know that I am 100% at peace with what my country did, what my army did, and what I did. However, I feel your pain. I am sorry for the destruction you are finding in your neighborhood at this moment. On a personal level, I did what I could to minimize the damage to your home as much as possible.

In my opinion, we have a lot more in common than you might imagine. I am a civilian, not a soldier, and in my private life I have nothing to do with the military.

However, I have an obligation to leave my home, put on a uniform, and protect my family every time we are attacked. I have no desire to be in your home wearing a uniform again and I would be more than happy to sit with you as a guest on your beautiful balcony, drinking sweet tea seasoned with the sage growing in your garden.

The only person who could make that dream a reality is you. Take responsibility for yourself, your family, your people, and start to take control of your destiny. How? I do not know. Maybe there is something to be learned from the Jewish people who rose up from the most destructive human tragedy of the 20th century, and instead of sinking into self-pity, built a flourishing and prospering country. It is possible, and it is in your hands. I am ready to be there to provide a shoulder of support and help to you.

But only you can move the wheels of history.

Regards, Yishai, (Reserve Soldier)

[Originally published in Hebrew in Maariv January 2009
Translation by Yona Cymerman]



  1. Do any of us have any hope of there being peace in the Middle East? Has there ever been? Not in my lifetime. I feel for all the innocent people involved, all the children especially. God help those who will turn to Him for the answers.


    1. There are loads of Christian reconciliation projects out there, and I’m proud of them. Same as there were (and still are) in N Ireland. In the end, pray God the tide will begin to turn.


    1. See Bushka’s comment – it may be a hoax? But as Shimon posted it I’m respecting the fact that it probably represents the view of many Israelis. That isn’t to say that I agree with either side. The truth is always more complex.


    1. Yes, I respect Bushka’s comment. On the other hand, I also think that Shimon posted it, and therefore it is probably representative not only of his view but of many Israelis.


      1. I looked at the link and saw another letter written in reply..it’s hard to reconcile two such utterly different narratives…and after the deaths this last ten days the horror is apparent to us all.


      2. … with God, to complete the quotation. Prayer and reconciliation efforts, of which there are many, will continue. The fact that N Ireland finally came to terms gives me hope, although of course it is not perfect. Time we stopped thinking that perfection is possible in this life.


      3. It seems ironic that both sides believe in the God of Abraham.I think some things must be impossible to God,otherwise why did he allow various holocausts etc.. there is no answer..


      4. God always seems to get blamed in the west for the bad things that happen. I don’t blame God, I blame evil, which is always working against God. Also, God’s power is made perfect in weakness. If we understood that, we would stop expecting him to zap the baddies. The power of God needs always to be understood in the light of Jesus’ crucifixion and resurrection.


    1. Yes, I went to the site that Bushka highlighted and read the other letter which is equally poignant, even if not genuine, which still leaves me thinking the entire situation is heartbreaking.

      I agree with you that Shimon would MOST definitely know what he is talking about and not post lightly or falsely.xxxxx


      1. I think God’s put a little bit of heaven in our hearts, so that we desire peace, and justice, and love and hope, and so that we never stop working towards them :yes:


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